You know if you have a child...and you take a trip...you just know this will pop out about 5000 times before you get there. Why? Because a child is impatient, right? And as the adult, as the loving parent, you are supposed to answer with a kind and loving (and mature) response.
But do we whine and ask and persist with God? Do we? Do we?
What if I feel I have waited long enough? What if I have done what I have been asked to do? What if I have invested in right actions and even made hard choices to do so? What if I have gone the path no one else went? Alone, in fact! Does this not count for anything!?!
May I have a day of whining a little bit please? Just a little? I believe what You are asking is just a bit too hard. Even for me, who has done so much on Your behalf. But what You are asking, right now, at this point in my life, it is just too hard and not right.
We think like that, is it okay for it to slip out? I was praying earlier today and tears running down my face, very gently, it did not feel like a temper tantrum at all. Was it? I am tired and I have been required much of, and much, of I have given. I have not been perfect but I have been faithful through some very difficult and deep waters. I am wiped and my good and gracious Father knows it.
Am I being the Big and Arrogant Brother? Or am I just tired? Oh please, please, I beg you, don't ask this of me! It's not a matter of trust, it is a matter of timing. Don't make me wait another long season and enter into this for another person. After what You just put me through. Please, please, please.
There it is, do you see it? Is He good? Is He? Is He really up to something good in our lives? Or is it much bigger than that? Is it always about changing character?! Is being "home" a great thing? Is being in the presence of my Father a sweet and holy thing or am I rushing on to where I am headed?
"For the LORD God is our light and protector. No good thing will the LORD withhold from those who do what is right. O LORD Almighty, happy are those who trust in you." Psalm 84:10-11
Lord, that I would hear this sweet reminder and be satisfied right here, right now. Amen. Thank you, that as Your child, you welcome me.
Do you feel okay being home? Do you whine sometimes, too? What do you hear from your Father?
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